Be Happy Where YOU Are!

Happiness is obviously a completely subjective perspective, once upon a time it was said that I was “living the dream”. Lounging around in Hollywood with access to as much egotistical, financial and sexual gratification I could wish for.. the thing is, was I ever really happy?

Yes in all honesty. I felt I was very superficially happy and to me that was good enough. Where I was, with what I knew, I was the happiest I’d been in a long time, perhaps in my life. Yet “comparisons are odious” some wise guy said and feeling better than depressed was perhaps not the best gauge moving towards any purposeful life. However even with the taste of hidden loneliness, I be-lie-ved I was sooo happy and was ready to die in an orgy of over-indulgences. That works fine for a while, the happier you think you are, the more attractive you become to others seeking external thrills. Before you know it everywhere you go someone is offering themselves for a piece of what they think you got. I met so many hungry souls looking to feel something with an(y)-other just to avoid themselves.

Somehow I kept landing on my feet. I kept waking up looking for who I AM was here to be? I came to realize I’d never really unlocked my why? Why I was so absorbed in getting it, hitting it, killing it. I never felt to look back and face my reasons. Obsessed with the hustle, I kept doing me until there was no one else around. You don’t have to reach that level of self-serving indulgence, I can tell you it gets dizzy real quick. Money and success can be a medicine, more accurately energy and attention can heal yet it also gets addictive. As I look back on my career I realized it was never the real source of happiness for me. Perhaps the path lead me a-way so I could learn too value the finer things?

My best memories came from the intangible and intimate moments I shared with friends, the innerstanding of spiritual growth and marveling at the wonders of the natural world. The rest was simply a distraction, I yearned to get back to my own vision of innerversity. As soon as I started discerning what happiness was for me, it evolved. The you-niverse keeps us moving this way, all those shiny things become dull eventually. Fake people really feel plastic and even when enough is enough they’re still hungry for more. I decided to stop feeding the false ego and real-eyes my true self, that I could always be enough for me. Leaving it all alone, you see you already have it all. Every thing we look for is looking for us. From deep within all I wanted was love and connection and I feel many of us have felt the same way. Until you can genuinely feel this alone, how could you ever relate the experience with another?

A lot of people, many of my closest friends get off the train at this stop. Getting any deeper into spirituality threatens their waking dreams. Many would rather stay drunk on fame champagne, creep around lost angels city and survive in their fiat monetary matrix. The J.O.B racket is to keep everyone “Just Over Broke” and competition is fierce to impress the other broke survivors in the club. Truth is I can love them still, I can literally be happy for my friends exactly where they are because I am truly happy with where I AM. Never let someone else’s reality slow you from growing yours. What made you happy as a child ain’t the same as today so why would it be for tomorrow? There is so much to be, do and share in this world, the first step is to get out the box and go travel, go appreciate the world.

Live a life of no regrets, follow your passion and happiness and you’ll all ways be in alignment. Accept as we grow and expand all things change so embrace that, don’t get stuck in any stagnant loops. That’s when people stop tasting their joy juice and start sipping the haterade. Sure detractors and distractors will come and when you are truly in your happy place, you won’t feel to react negatively. It’s easier to choose love and see them as the younger brothers and sisters they be.

That’s all for today, never wanting to sound too preachy these are just my expressions on a page. I’ve been blessed to start a new chapter, Kai’s world and story brings me the purest happiness I’ve ever felt. The paradox is.. can I truly detached from his happiness? Hell no, and that’s how we all stay on this incredible ride together LOL!

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Everyone Loves Kai!

Everywhere we go, literally everyone smiles when they see Kai. I’m sure it’s the same for other babies, I mean we always smile at all the little people we see that’s for sure. Though in Thailand it’s really clear that as a culture Thais genuinely love children. The joy and happiness of any mother, not-yet mother and long ago mother is unanimous, big smiles! It’s the same for the majority of men out here too. We constantly here Thai phrases like “jah engggg” which I think translates to “over here” and “yim yim yim” which is essentially a very excited “smile” trying to get Kai’s attention.

It’s really nice and I get such a warm feeling when Kai is greeted with so much love everywhere he goes. I feel that’s the way all children in the world should be welcomed. Thais all want to kiss his feet and ask all about him. I feel for a child to feel welcomed and encouraged to say hello to new people makes the world a much less scary place. Of course it’s the parents role to be aware of any risky situations, however I feel in the west our “stranger danger” fear is projected so strongly that it carries forward into adult life. Just look around on the street, on the bus, in the metro. How many people are glued to their screens, headphones in and can hardly make eye contact with each other; let alone share a smile.

The only way we are going to change this world is by our own actions and by being our best example to the little ones, who quite clearly watch every action and interaction we make. The world is good when you see it as good, there’s more friendly and happy people when you look to see them and more so when you be them. When you shut everyone out, you often feel like everyone else is being distant too. You hear me say this all the time, you will only see what you be and that’s one of the greatest realizations I learned on my path.

What you see in the world is a direct reflection of who you be in the world. You are the god self incarnate and when you own that, you accept your role as the divine creator of your own reality. Make it your own and have a great day friends. We’re loving life at the beach, hope you all make some time to get outside too. Go take a walk and meet those fellow humans and animals too! 🙂




Welcome back to the blog! New year resolutions and review of the most amazing year of our lives, becoming parents to Kai. Here’s his first 100 day photo diary

Thankful for this moment, a day when each one I see is reflecting and reviewing their past few moments and looking forwards on some moments to come.

Time is a revolving trip to me, seeing self in and out of sync with some kind of fondness for memories that lead us here. All while as I close my eyes and focus enough, it’s still vividly here right now. So many smiles and laughs to choose from, cherry picking those delicious blissful ones, such blessings.

Looking back this may seem a riddle of sorts, however a part of me relates to you, a voice that connects the observer to the observed. We’re infinite beings, ever being and becoming. No more real has this become than waking up with Kai pulling on my chin. Real-eyes his beautiful face, always full with gummy smiles and from the day we first met he has known this truth. Unconditional love, as one we are made of this.

With this fresh feeling I say, I love you. Whenever and where ever we met through this play, you are here in my heart today. Thank you for seeing me and sharing some moments, here’s to many more reflections of self in gratitude for love and life.

Happy New Year 2017.. oh and Bitcoin is back at $1000 yay!!